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l l tAg mE;

reorganising the priorities in life. Not going into the rat race.

going to Shanghai Fudan for 3 weeks soon. Mixed feelings..

The reason for me to stay though. grateful for the opportunity.


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Your touch. your hugs.your arms.

the caress. the concern.

the heart beats faster and the smile that delights.

cherish the time that we spent.

appreciate the acceptance of faith and appearance.

your heart has never before been given till we met.

the heart was given away once but glad that its still functioning.

thank you for walking into my life.

{/8:39 PM}

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

When you are so determined to change your life and challenge it through faith,

nothing can stop you. absolutely nothing!

Your prayer will be manifested in a form greater than you have ever hoped.

When good fortune comes, you cant stop it. It will just flow into your life.

Very grateful. its because of Chingay.

"wow, she is in Chingay. She must be special."



one determination. one action.

simply straightforward. no pretense.

continuation. interaction.

not the height and the weight. its the heart.

the caring personality. the sincerity expressed.

things happened for a reason. to test.

simple gestures melt the heart.

more coming from the other side.

deep dialogue. obvious hints.

if the other side confess, this side will accept.

trials make us strong. good things are worth waiting for.

finally this one appear.

its the effort. the respect.

the other side is embracing.

a simple lifestyle. a simple background.

if this is it, i will do my best.

{/8:34 PM}

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

its 2012.... ... time really flies huh.

things change. people change. i want to change my life in 2012 for the better.

with courage, faith and new resolution,

i must have a new life in 2012. Less work. More life.



Resolution:

1) achieve a breakthrough in my life condition. must control my temper.

2) be a source of inspiration to many others.=)


i really want to change my life, so that i can encourage my friends to do the same.

i want to change. i really want to change! change change change!

go go go ! change change change! positive positive positive!

{/8:02 PM}

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

Its december... ... time really flies.


this year has been an eventful year at work and in my personal life.

at work, what's keeping me sane?

overseas trip. to see the world. to find myself. to find a greater purpose.




Am i still bothered by it? oh well. . B and i r still teaching the same class.

wounds will never heal if they being reopened time and time again.

my choice. my lessons. have learnt and thats it.

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what do i want to achieve this month?

Bury myself in books. Enrich my mind. enrich my life.

read abt leadership, life and money.

spend time with family.


lesson packages?? these can wait.

set tests and exams?? these can wait.

arts fest ticketing and performance?? this can wait.

work is now secondary.

finding the purpose is primary.

{/2:46 PM}

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

flying off to yunnan in a day's time...wowow!

This time a different feeling and mood. perhaps bec i am the main IC of the team.

being a team with people of my age, really need a lot of wisdom to make decision on the ground.

i can do it. i mus have confident that i can! i will! i must win!

Yunnan kids, we r coming!=)

Perhaps, this is the only thing thats keeping me sane in this system.

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for the past 2 weeks, have been hearing things about B.

people here and there talking to me about him. oh well... thats it.

if he is turning back, that will be a bonus. if not, i will say goodbye to him.

or rather, already say goodbye to him.

ya he can only be a good friend, not a bf. Cos if he can, he wouldnt have left my feelings

hanging there. and i was right. on that 2 occasions, my intuition told me that things

were not fine. True enough, i realised he was after her and he stopped when

he knew that she is already attached. After catching hold of me, he choose to let go and try

someone else.

B, i see your true colours. though they tell me you are worth waiting for, i have decided...

goodbye!

{/11:30 PM}

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

quite some time since the last blog post..

Have been really really busy wih my life and the life of others. =)



1st and 2nd Oct was a tiring and fulfilling trip to SGI Malaysia to have an exchange with my

msia comrades in faith.=)

Busy with marking cos of the exam period and admin stuff for my Yunnan trip.=)

Recently alot of Soka meetings and i am joining Chingay 2012 yeah!!^.^



"the moment i change, the universe couldnt help but support me."

feel very strongly about this. given up on B. his reservist is the best

time for me to recuperate. Yes i am finally able to move on with pride!! i'm finally FREE!

once i decided very strongly that i am going to move on, things change.

yes i deserve a better guy. he doesnt need me to remind him that i am great.


Opportunities start to knock on my door when i have decided that i want to change

this pART of my life.

know each other and see how things go.

{/7:54 PM}

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

moving on in the aspect of my committee work... ...fireworks!

Yes! i am enjoying the activties for my yunnan service learning trip!

tired of marking, preparing lessons and setting papers.

More satisfaction comes from seeing my students develop and shine when they

are given the opportunities. Not academic goals.

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receive a jumbo pencil from B in the morning. a pleasant surprise.

same table. sitting opposite each other. drink. supper.happy.

still, i am moving on.

leaving. not waiting.

the push factor of leaving was when i was reminded of that 2 occasions when

u were with her.

disappointed. cried. i choose to leave.

{/8:53 PM}

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.