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2012-03-03T20:39:00.003+08:00

reorganising the priorities in life. Not going into the rat race.

going to Shanghai Fudan for 3 weeks soon. Mixed feelings..

The reason for me to stay though. grateful for the opportunity.

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Your touch. your hugs.your arms.

the caress. the concern.

the heart beats faster and the smile that delights.

cherish the time that we spent.

appreciate the acceptance of faith and appearance.

your heart has never before been given till we met.

the heart was given away once but glad that its still functioning.

thank you for walking into my life.

2012-02-01T20:34:00.003+08:00

When you are so determined to change your life and challenge it through faith,

nothing can stop you. absolutely nothing!

Your prayer will be manifested in a form greater than you have ever hoped.

When good fortune comes, you cant stop it. It will just flow into your life.

Very grateful. its because of Chingay.

"wow, she is in Chingay. She must be special."

one determination. one action.

simply straightforward. no pretense.

continuation. interaction.

not the height and the weight. its the heart.

the caring personality. the sincerity expressed.

things happened for a reason. to test.

simple gestures melt the heart.

more coming from the other side.

deep dialogue. obvious hints.

if the other side confess, this side will accept.

trials make us strong. good things are worth waiting for.

finally this one appear.

its the effort. the respect.

the other side is embracing.

a simple lifestyle. a simple background.

if this is it, i will do my best.

2012-01-01T20:02:00.002+08:00

its 2012.... ... time really flies huh.

things change. people change. i want to change my life in 2012 for the better.

with courage, faith and new resolution,

i must have a new life in 2012. Less work. More life.

Resolution:

1) achieve a breakthrough in my life condition. must control my temper.

2) be a source of inspiration to many others.=)

i really want to change my life, so that i can encourage my friends to do the same.

i want to change. i really want to change! change change change!

go go go ! change change change! positive positive positive!

2011-12-02T14:46:00.002+08:00

Its december... ... time really flies.

this year has been an eventful year at work and in my personal life.

at work, what's keeping me sane?

overseas trip. to see the world. to find myself. to find a greater purpose.

Am i still bothered by it? oh well. . B and i r still teaching the same class.

wounds will never heal if they being reopened time and time again.

my choice. my lessons. have learnt and thats it.

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what do i want to achieve this month?

Bury myself in books. Enrich my mind. enrich my life.

read abt leadership, life and money.

spend time with family.

lesson packages?? these can wait.

set tests and exams?? these can wait.

arts fest ticketing and performance?? this can wait.

work is now secondary.

finding the purpose is primary.

2011-11-13T23:30:00.003+08:00

flying off to yunnan in a day's time...wowow!

This time a different feeling and mood. perhaps bec i am the main IC of the team.

being a team with people of my age, really need a lot of wisdom to make decision on the ground.

i can do it. i mus have confident that i can! i will! i must win!

Yunnan kids, we r coming!=)

Perhaps, this is the only thing thats keeping me sane in this system.

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for the past 2 weeks, have been hearing things about B.

people here and there talking to me about him. oh well... thats it.

if he is turning back, that will be a bonus. if not, i will say goodbye to him.

or rather, already say goodbye to him.

ya he can only be a good friend, not a bf. Cos if he can, he wouldnt have left my feelings

hanging there. and i was right. on that 2 occasions, my intuition told me that things

were not fine. True enough, i realised he was after her and he stopped when

he knew that she is already attached. After catching hold of me, he choose to let go and try

someone else.

B, i see your true colours. though they tell me you are worth waiting for, i have decided...

goodbye!

2011-10-23T19:54:00.005+08:00

quite some time since the last blog post..

Have been really really busy wih my life and the life of others. =)

1st and 2nd Oct was a tiring and fulfilling trip to SGI Malaysia to have an exchange with my

msia comrades in faith.=)

Busy with marking cos of the exam period and admin stuff for my Yunnan trip.=)

Recently alot of Soka meetings and i am joining Chingay 2012 yeah!!^.^

"the moment i change, the universe couldnt help but support me."

feel very strongly about this. given up on B. his reservist is the best

time for me to recuperate. Yes i am finally able to move on with pride!! i'm finally FREE!

once i decided very strongly that i am going to move on, things change.

yes i deserve a better guy. he doesnt need me to remind him that i am great.

Opportunities start to knock on my door when i have decided that i want to change

this pART of my life.

know each other and see how things go.

2011-09-02T20:53:00.002+08:00

moving on in the aspect of my committee work... ...fireworks!

Yes! i am enjoying the activties for my yunnan service learning trip!

tired of marking, preparing lessons and setting papers.

More satisfaction comes from seeing my students develop and shine when they

are given the opportunities. Not academic goals.

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receive a jumbo pencil from B in the morning. a pleasant surprise.

same table. sitting opposite each other. drink. supper.happy.

still, i am moving on.

leaving. not waiting.

the push factor of leaving was when i was reminded of that 2 occasions when

u were with her.

disappointed. cried. i choose to leave.

2011-08-13T22:19:00.002+08:00

really tired with work.

tired tired tired... ...

decided to spend an afternoon with my comrades at the sand, the sea, the wind.

encouraging the freshies who are enterign SMU.

i know i am out of radar with everyone. my self will be back. hopefully SOON.

2011-07-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

Tired... ... overwhelmed wih work.

my soul will be back.

B and i are ok now. normal. friends who help each other as we are teaching the same class.

He helped me with the Attention seeker in his class and managed to gain the kid's trust.

He has helped me once again. i am not doing anything special. jus being grateful.

i shall see the nice side of him. suppress the negatives.

i'd rather choose to hav an ally than to have an enemy when work is already shitty.

i am different because i chant. i can be happy. i will. i must.

2011-06-19T21:15:00.002+08:00

read sensei guidance ... hit me to the core.=(

cried again. BUT it was good.

guess i was jus suppressing the feelings of hurt for the past month.

today i am determine not to let HIM bother me anymore.No more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When i see him tomorrow, its gonna be jus normal. be normal. treat him like others.

yes i must be ok. we will jus be like normal.

go back to the start. like how he first came in. normal.normal. normal.

i can do it. i will. i must.

2011-06-12T00:26:00.003+08:00

reflection for the past 6 months...

a lot of things.. good or bad happened. at work or in r/s. oh well.. life still goes on.

what affected me the most was the matters of the heart.

yes i lost the trust in these two people.. but i gain alot of support and encouragement from

my friends. able to understand the erroneous judgement.

i realise again that true joy is found when i go for gakkai activities. meet ppl who need

my encouragement.=)

yes i miss those times that we spent. but have to move on.

there's a reason why they appear. there must be something in me that attracts them

accroding to my friend.

and indeed a blessing that things happened before we even started. Cos they will defintely

happen: religion clashes and some unknown reason, it sjust a matter of time. and yes

my prayers were answered though not the answer that i would have expected.

whatever. i shall forgive this Xiao Ren.

Change my life based on faith.

2011-06-02T15:37:00.002+08:00

Thanks for all your encouragement.

Shall leave that idiot aside.

i am ok liao. No more tears. moving on with my life.

be wise.

2011-05-28T13:22:00.003+08:00

bastard, asshole.. these words just came into my mind.

i am not this kind of person.i dun like to use such words. but...

for no reason, i was being pushed into the cold store.

for no reason, there was this drastic change in behaviour.

deleted all of B's sms, watsapp chat and emails.

cried. hurt. but i got to move on.

yes this aspect of my life is in deep shit.

i will survive like how i brave other storms in life.

2011-05-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

A woman who makes offerings will invite happiness in this life. i still believe.

i shall pay attention to what is done. What i observed.

i cared more this time.shall stop caring for you.

you are just a dust in the wind.

how can i allow myself to be affected because of you?

no way.

2011-05-14T12:49:00.002+08:00

no more expectations. no more believing in empty promises.

focus on work and activties. Meeting up with people.

encouraging others will encourage myself.

you are the cause for my earnestness in my practice.

whatever outcome it will be, i will continue living.

for you will just be a dust in the air.

not going to analyze how we met, how mystical things become.

whatever. not worth.

2011-05-08T23:14:00.002+08:00

What's the pushing factor?? bonus? ranking?

NO! who cares?its never gonna be fair anyway.this system sucks to the max!

him.

i need to strengthen my faith, yes seriously.

connect. actual proof.

2011-05-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

today i renew my determination...

to strengthen my faith and that of my members

for the sake of my family and my health(yeah i think somewhere is wrong wih my body)

for me to have the buddha eyes

show me if he is.

2011-04-27T22:35:00.003+08:00

Tired. hate those non-core functions!!!!!

well its finally over! a roller-coaster ride but grateful for all things that have happened.

B's the first to msg me.

yup so looking forward to the weekend.

going to watch HC drama wih B.=)

maybe B is just treating me like a sister. ok dun wan to think. see how it goes.

2011-04-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

overwhelm. insecure. uncertain. stress. tears.

felt very insecure for the entire week. Next week is competition and deadlines are near and tight.

Felt distant with B for this week. its a strange feeling. see each other but like strangers.

this added on to my insecurities.

Just as i felt stress and insecure, that C guy msg me.

his words are sweet but my stand is clear. well, can only be friends.

at least tonight, B took the initiative to cheer me up.

For the good things that happened this week, i mus go for meeting tomorrow.=)

2011-04-17T13:23:00.002+08:00

Drained. Exhausted. overworked. Sick..=( finally a good evening with B yesterday. =) Of sand. sea. fireworks. long walk. dessert. milk tea. though my heart doesnt beat as fast. i look forward to meet him. he has been my supportive friend, my sunshine when the times get tough. back to faith. challenge. for my dad's health, i need to accumulate good fortune.

2011-04-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

time spent on ???? on work lor.-_- spent 6 days a week. Today woke up with drama stuff on my mind. wth. super down.LLC. went for memorial prayer meeting. give guidance to CIC. able to regain my composure after chanting and with B's encouragement. B is busy wih his competition too. both of us falling sick and having fatigue. But his optimism never fail to influence me. comrade's dad passed away on friday. i want to spend more time at home with my family.

2011-04-03T13:18:00.004+08:00

What's affecting me?? Busy work schedule.. its the peak of the semester. SYF competition, rushing syllabus, extra consultation sessions, committee... cranky last minute stuff. very draining. tired. but at least B's there to support. When i needed help, he was there. encouraging each other to think positively. B's positive thinking is influential. just follow the routine for now to be alive.

2011-03-26T22:51:00.002+08:00

Just want to be myself... be true to myself at work, in faith, in my life.

Work: i am just being myself. My happiness is more important. so heck those rumours.

Some ppl keep asking about PB. i dun wan to compare. dun ask me la.

no matter what, you still have to do those shit ma. whats the point of comparing?

faith: need to do more dialogues and daimoku.

Personal: no longer able to withdraw, resist, has reciprocated. actions speak louder than words.

B's feeling that way too, been very spontaneous and positive.

B's my complement.

its just the time.

still got to open my eyes.

2011-03-17T15:31:00.002+08:00

Its good to talk and get opinion...

a lot of thoughts going through my mind after that day.

rumours? you cant control.

Work life balance? impossible. can only integrate.

How to make work more exciting? good people around you.

B? still need wisdom to see.

B's making a positive move, so i reacted in return.

i see B as my complement.

But...

there's fear in me. keep telling myself to ...

withdraw. be on guard. open my eyes.

2011-03-13T23:30:00.002+08:00

There's something that i need to find out...

Open my eyes wide. eyes of wisdom, i so need you now.

in trouble wih RAMS at work but life stil goes on.

Work is forever there, its how we play with our time.

Good to have people whom we can bitch together.

Rumours?? we cant control their big mouths. so be it.

friends for now. let me see through B's character.

2011-03-04T21:12:00.002+08:00

A time for myself?? ktv? movie? simply no time for all these...

Am trying my best to achieve a balance life.

Next week is Common test(5 classes hor) + normal lesson.=(

CCA duty on friday but at least there are good friends ard.

Seems like will be having dinner with B whenever i hav duty.

He volunteered to stay back to do his marking while waiting for me.

at least i am not alone.

Nothing is impossible. the right one will appear.

2011-02-25T20:34:00.002+08:00

Love myself. Create value in my life... Working towards a balance life.

Forgiving another person will make me happier.

i cant deny the power of technology, the power of media.

B invited me for dinner after my cca duty. so we went to the coffee shop for a quick

dinner as i need to rush for meeting. Students saw us walking out together.

Didnt know they will take photo from behind.

Posted on fb. haiz.

2011-02-20T00:08:00.002+08:00

Miraculously... i hav recovered from this r/s issue.

i am more driven at work, gakkai activities and focusing on getting a work-life balance.

There's more things in life.

I am going to chant wih my mbr to support her in solving her problems.

=)

Selfish guys are jerks.seriously he is one of them.

2011-02-13T14:07:00.002+08:00

I am back...

Have decided not be a slave to my emotions and negative thoughts.

More vibrant at work.

good to start writing cards to my members.

I feel very encouraged when i write them guidances.

Chant with my members really help me feel better.

Back to daimoku.

wants to change the seem-to-be unchangeable destiny.

the right one will appear.

2011-02-08T22:05:00.002+08:00

Thats it for us... ...

The chat ended off quite badly.

he is so inflexible and selfish wih his intention to convert me first when i say NO!

i am upset.. feels as though someone has raise me up and push me down the cliff.

i will be alright. i will be strong.

Back to Daimoku and faith. I want to start my habit of writing cards and letters.

As i write to encourage others, i will also encourage myself.

The pain will be over soon.

If i didnt meet the wrong one, i will not cherish the right one.

2011-02-04T12:19:00.002+08:00

taking one step at a time...

our catalyst: Hong kong conference presentation

our obstacle: religion

yes its disturbing and irritating.....

sometimes the best thing to do is to ignore the problem and

treat each other like normal friends

its easier said than done.

what will be will be.

meanwhile back to daimoku.

2011-01-28T15:44:00.002+08:00

The courage to challenge...

The mind knows what action should be taken.

but the heart is in conflict with the mind.

its easy to say "jus leave me alone", "stop replying his sms." but doing it is difficult.

6 years ago it was easy to say "thats it." since we are of different faith.

its different this time. i made it very blunt and frank. i want to send the right signal.

its like two speeding cars crashing with each other. both on defensive mode.

Communication breakdown when we talked abt this.

i said "i am stubborn, i am rebellious, i refuse to try to understand.its non-negotiable."

he replied " i will pray for you."

i said " then you pray very hard ba. real hard. you have your turning point, so do i.

dont force your beliefs down my throat when i am not going to do that."

~~~~~~silence~~~~~~ tension~~~~~~

The heart looks forward to his daily sms despite this difference in us.

The heart can feel the sincerity and the care coming from him.

The heart can accept his everything, his mental disorder,

his unpleasant and complicated family background, his different faith but...

we are just friends because of this BIG rock in front of us.

How to solve this?? Through daimoku.

2011-01-22T14:37:00.002+08:00

slacking days are gone.. gonna be real busy. busy with a mission.

Kick off for peer leaders training, yunnan trip fund-raising, assembly sharing,

talent science program, learning journey... more to come..

33 hours per two weeks. oh man.... but i can feel the difference.

Happier this term.=)

took on assistant Chapter role to develop myself in faith.

perhaps you are my expedient means to strengthen my faith.

you said i've some what changed in the way i respond.

yes i do bec whenever i wan to respond, another side of me will pull myself away.

then my comments will end up sarcastic, blunt and frank.=(

2011-01-16T14:07:00.002+08:00

Good fortune of the year!

an adventurous, dramatic, eventful sec 2 camp >,<.. but its good fortune that i am safe.

Still happy at work =) love my kids..=)

Focus on my kids =).. not the ppl and admin work.

my mission this year: foster capable youths in Gakkai and work.

As the days go by, i have begun to see clearly. Still need wisdom though...

enlightened: character is more important than a common religion.=)

you are very strong.. i need to be stronger, continue to develop myself in faith.

2011-01-04T23:06:00.002+08:00

argh!!!!!!!!!!

dunt like that DING DONG feeling.

need the wisdom eye.

i try to concentrate on my work but....

taking a step back from A, B and C.

Problem with A: religion

B: flirty

C: passive

but they are nice people.

daimoku. timing.

2011-01-03T14:06:00.002+08:00

resolution for 2011:

1) Strong life force, high life condition. With this, anything can be overcomed.

2) .....................

bothered so strongly by it. Rmbr, high life condition?? yup so continue to move on.

all these trainings give me one step closer to be SH for SL, and to foster capable youths.

dun complain. GO and do it!

my karma.

2010-12-29T23:08:00.002+08:00

Its not that i didnt try to meet up, i want to...

being an educator is busy. Really busy. if not, you try being one.;(

27 dec: chem meeting and marking

28 dec: staff training

29 dec: staff meeting and bonding

30 dec: send materials for print

31 dec: sec 2 camp recee

4 Jan: collate emergency contact list for sec 2 camp

7 jan: bring students to RP, go for sec 2 camp at night

8 and 9 jan: Sec 2 camp.

Jan to Apr: Student leadership recruitment, Yunnan trip recruitment,

Yunnan trip preparation and RAMs, SYF chinese drama trainings

Apr to May: Briefings and meetings for yunnan trip, implement Youth leaders workshop

June: Science competition, yunnan trip

............................ to be continued.

give me that support.

2010-12-18T17:34:00.002+08:00

back from vietnam.. tomorrow to Hong kong for conference.=)

After much travelling, i am still proud to be a Singaporean.

I am not a Chinese but a Singaporean Chinese.=)

i love the order here. no scary traffic, little air pollution, the comfort of a common language.

i still love travelling, love exploring rural places especially..

with hope.=)

2010-12-06T15:02:00.002+08:00

A sudden idea came... yup more plans.. Greater mission. i can do it through faith.

June 2011 -- Yunnan ocip

Nov-Dec 2011 -- Overseas work attachment

Mar - May 2012 -- Shanghai exchange programme

Nov 2012 -- Yunnan OCIP

Dec 2013 -- Bond ends. New beginning????

as for the other side of me, wih hope.. Hope is my only motivation.

2010-12-04T23:04:00.002+08:00

Busy holiday but meaningfully busy..=D

Too much on my plate?? on the surface seems yes.. but i am happy. i want to challenge!

I dun wan to giv up! I wan to go back Yunnan next June for the children.^^

i can do it. Through faith.

despite some politics going on, i am not going to be affected.

i am very clear about My mission now -- Service learning. Student leadership is my mission.

2010-11-26T13:11:00.002+08:00

Hello!! back from Yunnan..=)

Fantastic, fun, enriching... i gain my sanity in education! yohhooo!

I see....

students' transformation in 8 days.

the need to read widely and learn more abt chinese culture.

my mission in service learning!!\^^/

yunnan june 2011, i am determined to make it happen!!

2010-11-13T23:53:00.002+08:00

SYM Song

2010-11-11T00:06:00.003+08:00

Not very happy about certain issues... BUt i am going to wake up.

i will change my destiny in the workplace for 2011. I am not going to be haunted by that.

this remark " you are too low profile. She is more prominent, thats why she is higher."

will be erased from your record in 2011.

I am low profile doesnt mean i am NOT doing work lor. i realised this is the way the world is.

2011. under the right Head. The influential one. Someone who can speak up for me.

Student leadership. I can do it! The right Comm for me! i must prove my ability!

2010 trips: nominated for Japan, Yunnan

2011 trip:Nominated for yunnan

2012: i shall self-nominate for Shanghai 6 week program or Sec 3 level camp @Shanghai

Stud ldr Comm is my only hope to save myself for my bonus.

I HATE it when i am being forced to go after the money and the rank.

Ppl mus see that i DID something before i can get my deserved reward.

Low profile doesnt mena slack ma. wth.

So everything must SHOW. Must CONTROL TEMPER. ENDURE till 2014.

2010-11-06T15:54:00.003+08:00

was damn pissed at open house... seriously pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wth!

watever.. its over!>,<

Japan trip is not under sci, soapbox not under proj work so u jus wan to showcase them

when its not true?? Its all about marketing. YOu place the SSA awards and SEA trophy.

To show how good we are. come on are we there yet?

why boast? are we there yet? why proposing IP?

look at the quality of the students lor.. Come on... oh shit man.

has education lost its soul? come on la... the news just ANNOUCNED THAT they recruited

thousands of ppl.. come on la.. because everyone is leaving. turnover rate is so damn high.

reflect la. i am gg to come back next sat Again! wth!

this post may not sound like the SH that u know.. yup bec i am SO DAMN PISSED!!!!!!!

2010-10-30T16:38:00.001+08:00

I want to meet up.....!!!!

To bitch, to laugh, to encourage!

miss my presence?? lets meet up!!=)

2010-10-23T17:17:00.003+08:00

Goodbye 2010 soon....

Reflection:

Gakkai-- SMUSD grew.. Org comm for International Day of peace! District?? hmmmm...

Friends-- got to know them better. meet-ups!!

Work-- Japan trip, improvement in rapport, Cope better, Grad ceremony Comm,

OSCAR award,Open House Comm, Yunnan Recee trip, HK Education Conference.

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Hello 2011!!

Gakkai-- Maybe grad soon from SD.. hope to continue till March at least and see how.

Friends-- COntinue to meet!! but if grad from SD, means meet less.. >.<

Work-- Sec 2 camp@Ubin, Lower Sec sci coordinator, Sci talent IC, New CCA,

Peer leaders in Service OCIP@Yunnan, Grad ceremony Comm...

Forget abt those negative feedback after my work review.

I shall just keep my mouth shut for the coming year.

Just fake a smile even when i am damn pissed ok?? good for everyone.

wth. cant even be myself cos ppl stab u behind your back. F*.

whatever, work towards: Outstanding Youth in Education Award. i worked so hard.

must have recognition. i can do it. Stay positive.

Motto for next year: Be smart. Be wise. Be positive. ZIP my mouth!

2010-10-18T18:28:00.002+08:00

Can i do it??

2011 deployment is out.

1) Lower sec sci coordinator [Syllabus, test and exam dates, setter, lesson materials, logistics]

2) IC for Science talent Programme [ plan Science talent syllabus, set S paper, research proj]

3) IC for overseas CIP [ june 2011]

4) in level Camp committee [jan 2011]

5) In Graduation ceremony committee [oct 2011]

6) In math competition committee [term 3 2011]

I cannot do everything but i can do something. ... one thing at a time please.

2010-10-17T17:25:00.003+08:00

What's on my mind as of now??

Marking, Admin work, Read sensei's guidance and CL, prepare for discussion meeting,

exercise, work review, chem research paper + ppt for HK conference.

Jia you!! i can do it!

2010-10-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

2010-10-09T15:04:00.003+08:00

cant imagine that i have been blogging for 5 years.. time flies.
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supposed to start marking but wait...

Online to send proposal for peer leadership thingy..and take a break

Arrows flying around.. INjection at the back.. not sure if it hits me but whatever.

Be wise. Be smart. be alert!

hope to have heart to heart dialogue with friends.. like you, my friend but dunno

when there will be another chance.

2010-10-02T10:43:00.002+08:00

miss the chem lectures in nUS...

haa haa.. sy reminded me of the jokes made by the profs, especially Organometallcis prof

John Yip. Sarcastic guy but comical. wahahahah.

a good joke of the day.

here it is:

"bond cleavage. guys ARE EXCITED about it... when they hear the word cleavage."

wahahahha.=D

2010-09-26T11:59:00.001+08:00

coming week is gonna be hell..

Must be in good health so that i can go to the gym, finish my work and

prepare them for exams!

ganbate SH!

2010-09-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

kind of emo.....

When things get too overwhelming, i feel like punching it all out.. Out! Out! out!

went for bodycombat class to sweat it all out. ..

when's the next time i can talk to you again, my friend?

haven seen you online for the past two weeks....

2010-09-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

not a good start today but somehow i see hope and feel for something strong....

Today was so screwed and disorganised.. forgot to bring markers, bring the wrong worksheets,

laptop and microphone no batt.. very tired.. dun have the mood to scold the kids either..

but looking at their cards, i feel the courage and motivation again.

The yunnan trip in nov is confirmed. Will be going 2 OCIP trips next year.

now i see hope in growing and advancing.. though i have poor performance grade,

i want to show that i have positive attitude. i take initiative to observe senior lessons.

the OCIP trips next yr will be a chance for me to build up my portfolio.

Yes so much work for so little pay but i wan to excel within my stay here.

i dun wan to regret when i look back 5 yrs later that i have not accomplished any.

i wan to excel for myself, for my confidence create value during my stay here.

i know i can do it.

2010-09-10T13:42:00.002+08:00

this is sept holidays.. but is it for me??

thigns i have accomplished this holiday;

1) Pack my old work station

2) Unpack and decorate my new work station

3) Cleared all my markings

4) Set quiz and test

5) meet up with friends =)

to do list:
1) SETS ppt.

2) student leader OCIP plan for 2011-2012

3) remedial game ppt and ws

uncertainty:
1) am i still going Yunnan in nOv??

2010-09-05T23:42:00.003+08:00

a routine life?? or an exciting one??

sometimes i liek my life to be mroe routine, more organised... Have time for myself and friends.

Sometimes when we always do the things we do, it becomes sian..

i am feeling sian, like no excitement...

WTH is wrong with me?

When its routine, i find it boring.

When its too EXCITING, i complain.

i know somewhere deep within my life, i need to transform something.

what exactly is it?? its affecting me.

2010-08-29T11:56:00.002+08:00

Tr day dinner ar Pan Pacific 27082010...

Its BORING! if not for the food at such classy place and its free, i wouldnt have gone.

i dun like to Pr with such people who can only be colleagues and nothing else.

yes i want to suck the workplace's money.

seriously i hate the system at this place... or is it the system in this big organisation?

2010-08-21T23:34:00.002+08:00

1) seat allocation at new staffroom

2) accident

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1) nothing is fair. seriously!!

they say ballot but actually dun have lor. received a call at 3pm on fri.

"hey sh, come over now. else you will miss ur chance to choose ur seat liao."

when i reached there, iw as like ... shocked!

hod "hey only left 3 of u haven choose. can you choose now?"

only have 3 places left, choose wat??? its not nice of me to "fight" with seniors.

i said:"its ok lor. i wanted this but XXX senior wants it. its ok la. i take the behind one."

hod"no la, we cna ballot de.. you wan this ?? i talk to XXX."

"ok XXX said she can let u have it. she will choose other place."

so paiseh. seriously if u wan it to be fair, why not drop everyone an email to set date

and time for choosing of seats? wah lao............ so unfair.

2) my student met an accident outside school. haiz...>.<

left hip, left knee .... the cab rear-view mirror dropped, badly dented.

his hp and specs was smashed.

he will need to depend on wheelchair or clutches. and miss 1 month of lesson.

chant for his speedy recovery.

he is a nice and filial boy.

2010-08-15T18:48:00.002+08:00

drained this week...

merger with student leader comm?? isnt a bad idea?

perhaps i wil see myself grow. but will be in it for 2 years.

IC for OCIP. looking into yunnan..

"cna you go for yunnan recce trip with CCAB? you will head the stud leaders next yr.

can you craft out the programme for 2011 by 1st sept? include OCIP,

cultural exchange and ad-hoc green projects. will this be alright? i may not hav

fundings for yunnan reccee trip but i hope you can go for it."

hmmm..... yunnan trip costs me 1.4k, vietnam trip with the ladies, my HK conference

trip in dec costs abt 1k, my parents will be gg HK with me and that means about 3k.

It is only RIGHT that i go for the Yunnan trip cos no matter what, i will be heading it.

enough of work!

ah!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really regretted.i am really upset wih myself.

i could have gotten the YOG opening ceremony tickets.

i could have!!! why didnt that idea came into my mind earlier?

Opportunity only come by once! stupid me! stupid stupid stupid!

2010-08-07T22:02:00.002+08:00

310710...=D

recalling this makes me feel better.

anyway, the camp is so _____________________________. haiz...

long story. just one comment:

first I/C has no initiative.

hopefully can claim back 100% of my money.

can close down CCa le. Should and i will propose.

i rather be at a cca which i am needed where there is a shortage of trs.

CCA exists for the students. Because there's stud, trs' support are needed.

If there's only 6 members,how to carry on? 1st I/C also cannot be bothered.

Some people said as long as there's one student,there's still hope.

Its not as simple as you think, i am under M**, not NGO.

a lot of interests..... so mux well close down. save money!

2010-07-24T21:05:00.003+08:00

happenings!

1) prank call

2) push that Taiji on me

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1) " is this ms tan? tr of CCh?"

"yes what do u want? who's that?

"i hav a tracking system. i know who u r. YOu took my phone. i left it on bus 31. my no. is 96....."

"nope. i dun take bus 31..this is MY no. not yours. "

i hung up. i called my colleague to tell her. i dun rmbr letting strangers know where my

workplace is. My colleague suggests that i make a police report.

Just as i am about to leave the house.. SMS from XX. "ms tan, this is a prank call from M."

i called the no. and asked,"may i know who called this no.?"

" ms tan ah, M here. hahah.. just joking only. hahaha."

i was so damn pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!-___-

"M, u will serve detention tml. do u know that i am on my way to make a police report wih

my hp and hp bills as evidence?this is a serious matter. i thought its a phone scam!"

"relax la ms tan.. i am at Z's hse. We joke only.sorry."

The next day, i sent both of them for detention to write 11/2 page of reflection.-_-

foolish boys!

2) "we will be very busy you know.. this aug have cca camp and audit report.

oh ya, must do the Risk Assessment form. need YOU to do."

"we have not plan the activities, how to do??"

"let the kids plan tomorrow. oh ya, my bio fieldtrip also need to do RAMs. will need your help."

"i can teach you but u must fill it in on your own."

since when do i belong to bio dept??

the next day....

"oh sh,today the Rotarians are coming to sit in our meeting."

"so LAST minute???? omg!"

"sorry i have forgotten to inform you. too many things lately."

ok i dun take it to heart. its really too many stuff going on...

at the start of club meeting,

"sh ah, i cannot conduct the meeting. i need to attend the CCA briefing by HOD.

later when Dr G comes, you handle ya.

"me???!!! but i dunno who is Dr G.."

"but i hav to go for the briefing.he is the old man."

"alright then."

Dr G arrives............

"Hi Dr G!"

"i am NOT Dr G. he is Dr G. i am mr L."

Soooooooooooo embarrassed! soooooooo stress! i thought the older man is Dr G ma.

"your meeting place is in a computer lab?"

"er ya, the cca room under renovation. "

"you mean you have meeting wiht the computers?? no need to put the chairs in a circle?

arent you going to invite me to have a seat?"

"oops.. we just started. ya Dr G, pls have a seat"

i was like OMG!!!!!!!!!!! i realised no drink for them, ran to GO to take 2 bottles of drinks.

the phone rang...

"SH ah, can you handle them on your own? "

"i dun tink so. i mistook Mr L as Dr G and they sound unfriendly."

the meeting ended... i was so damn pissed!

telling me that they are coming on that day itself is already very last minute.

i understand that we do forget things. ook that aside.

then at 3pm you tell me that there's cca briefing when they are coming at 330pm.

how am i going to handle when i dunno even know who?

i shld have gone for the briefing instead. what makes me more pissed off was

the planning for the camp. you joined them for lunch for 1hr to do your grocery shopping

and bought a hamster for your daughter. that one hr can be used to discuss for the

agenda for the club meeting and the camp. Its not like you are rushing your work,

you went to do your shopping. And you told them that you are guilty bec you have alot

of things to do and you are not doing it. the club meeting is NOT tml, it is 1 hr later lor!

walao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>____<

i can do whatever things that you want me to do but you also must help ma.

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!! if i cannot change to CL drama club next yr, the only thing i can do is

to embrace. ENDURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-11T22:01:00.002+08:00

"you are the last C grader in the dept. i need to tell u this to be fair to u. i will fight for u.

We do see ur contribution but u need to brush up your teaching technique.

hope u wont cry."

tears rolled down my eyes not because i am discouraged. i am jus upset with the system.

i told him " i understand that its a competition. someone mus be a loser. But i tell u that

i focus on the purpose. whatever that i do is with a purpose."

he said "ok. you are not as good as her. thats why."

she said "did he ask u be the CPE? he said he is going to groom u before me."

oh well.... i realised something called TRUST. perhaps it wont happen at the workplace.

To YOU i may be a loser, i am not the best teacher.

I screwed up the last observation bec i was super stresss wiht the japan trip.

So i was being sentenced based on one observation? Whatever!

But i know that whatever i do, i do it with a purpose. For the students.

i didnt see it as a platform to boost my portfolio.

In my perspective, i am a Winner.

The system sucks!

2010-06-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

i want to spend some time reading every day... Can only do so while waiting for bus.

i want to pass the book--a compilation for guidances for all Young Women to that student.

She must be facing problems at home.. from her fb.

i am so not prepared for tomorrow. I dunno wat to do for math...

2 saturdays of july burnt!

10th July-- 71st School anniversary

17th July-- bazaar by the lake

2010-06-22T11:00:00.002+08:00

Learn to let go of things...

There will always be AMPLE things to do. Take everything as it is, challenge it a step at a time,

before you knew it, its over!

Life is more than work, there's always a time to relax, to meet up with friends,

to encourage another person,to do things that you like.

i have begin to learn this...

Focus on what you have, not what you dont, that will enable you to hav a positive state of mind.

2010-06-14T12:44:00.002+08:00

i should be resting as i am sick.. My nose is dropping and my head is warm.

But a sudden thought came to my mind. I went to check out SIA website for career opportunities.

I had some words with the singaporean station manager in Nagoya and kick-off my interest in

this industry.

I must work hard in these 5 years. Work very hard to build up my skills in relationship

and planning management. I am looking into General Admin manager post or station manager

in overseas airport. Its just a sudden thought, not yet cast to stone. I have not think about it as

my interest or mission.

Another idea came in... Educational trip planning manager in the tourism industry.

If this school exchange programme is going to be a long-term partnership, i may look into

Tourism industry and join them as educational trip planning manager. Purpose is to

provide singaporean students the best of culture experience and be appreciative.

jus some thoughts... seems like i like to daydream..

2010-06-08T20:56:00.002+08:00

my student and i wear the same shirt!!! and she's a believer of this faith.

On the 1st night that we walked past Soka gakkai Kyoto International Culture Centre,

i stopped and took a photo of it. Then she told her friends that she's practising this faith.

i was surprised!

We did gongyo and had dialogue that night.

This trip in summary: memorable+stress+heart-attacking+dramatic experience.

Memorable-- got to meet this student

Stress-- students are late most of the time, even tour guide is unhappy

Heart-attacking--Leave behind valuables in different hotels --_--

Dramatic: last day,students woke up late, left camera in hotel, brought scissors, honey and

fruit pudding in hand-carry, have problems with Nagoya immigration,

thought they lost their baggage when they reached spore.

i did learn a lot from this trip but the stress that i went through for the past 6 months ...

i rather go on a personal trip.

2010-05-29T21:06:00.002+08:00

The most important thing is not to be affected by the change in our environment, rather how

we think at every moment.

Mon is coming..,. Yokoso Nippon! omg! so not prepared....

will be back on 7th june.

2010-05-23T23:29:00.002+08:00

"Mrs E! wow, you and Mr E wear the same type of Polo T.".. haiz..

Must teach them a lesson when they do that again. Dun wan ppl to get it wrong.

Argh! one more week...

Mon: Parents briefing till 9pm

tues: Chant wih my member for her court case.

Wed: meet up wih yong jie and evelyn.=D

Thurs: chill out time @ KTV=D

Fri: Youth gathering

Sat: Pack luggage

Sun: Study meeting

Mon: Yokoso Nippon!

*hope everything goes well*

2010-05-10T00:06:00.002+08:00

NYCC exchange at Fudan...

Management looking for Singles and newly-weds to bring students to Fudan China in Dec

for 6-week programme.

You will miss your holiday and the make-up leave is only 10 days. Not fair.

forget it. I wont go unless its term time. i am Against it!

2010-05-07T18:23:00.001+08:00

23 more days to Nippon!!

excited but worried.

Nothing to fear with faith.

2010-04-29T21:44:00.003+08:00

i hate the feeling of being incompetent....-__-

"you are teaching upper sec style. but ur audience is lower sec."

"i think XXX is good, she is lively, a point to note."

last semester, i put in effort to make lesson interesting, come up with group activities.

However, this semester is just too overwhelming.. dont have the energy to sit down and

think...

i also want to be a bubbly, cheerful teacher.. i also want to be!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wan to be the best teacher, a caring teacher! i want to be that too!!!!!!!!

2010-04-25T23:12:00.004+08:00

Its beyond words!!!!!!!!!!!!!

received 3 parents' call... i cannot imagine myself being a parent next time.OMG!

"i can pay the full price for the japan trip. I dont need your subsidy.

Just bring my child with you ok?

My child is good academically, she is positive and i am sure many teachers will reckon that.

If manpower is aN ISSUE, my husband can go with you and take care of the kids.

Just take her with you ok?"

its ridiculous! Its not money ... so what if you are rich? Thats the more we cannot take you in.

I am glad i made the right choice. Some of the selected applicants either come from single parent

or mum has already passed away or dad has just found a job with monthly income of 1000 for

a family of 5. These are the people i want to help, of course, they deserve it because of their

positive attitude.

..... its just beyond words and she complained about me to my tr IC. She keeps rattling on,

not giving me a chance to talk, Of course i was SUPER FRUSTRATED. ALmost getting on a

fight with her. Super irritating parent!Stupid rich parent!

2010-04-11T00:06:00.002+08:00

First time staying in school from 7am-9pm without anytime to breathe on friday..

7am -- reached school, student asked me math qn

715am--schedule Japan trip interview for Monday

730-8am-- class admin matters, japan trip admin

8-830am-- one stud took math test earlier

830-845am-- discuss class issues with FT

850am-10am-- lesson

10-1020am--eat bread,edit mistakes for chem test qn

1020-1130am-- lesson

1130-1220--eat bread, prepare for next lesson

1220-1330-- lesson

1330-1400-- Japan trip interview

1400-1430-- prepare ppt. for cca meeting

1430-1500-- stud asked me chem questions

1500-1700-- cca

1700-1800-- cca committee matters

1800-1830-- eat Mac for dinner

1830-2030-- check math files, submit to HOD for checking

2030-2100-- sort japan trip applications, conduct phone interviews

2100-- home sweet home

what a crazy day but memorable.

2010-04-02T12:28:00.003+08:00

What can i do to fight for this Dream?

At times as such, i CANNOT be weak.

When the future seems bleak, i will strive for humanity.

I will pave the way

no matter how small i am

with my Mentor in mind

i steadfastly forged ahead

like the Roar of the lion king

turning winters All into spring

i will open the path

for humanity, for you and for me. ~~Soka Youth Musical 2010.

2010-03-27T12:04:00.002+08:00

Going to Japan with the Kids in June... mixed feelings but think POSITIVELY!

i can handle. I CAN and i MUST!

1) Target 22 students. Departure period tbc. Kyoto School exchange tbc.

2) Prepare application form and parents' letter.

3) RAMS: emergency relay system.

time to take ACTION!

2010-03-21T14:31:00.000+08:00

2010-03-15T23:08:00.002+08:00

Very grateful to have good friends around.. COmrades too.

But i need to find back my Ball of energy that i used to have in my NUS days.

This morning had great dialogue with Prof Janet Smith from Claremont McKenna COllege.

She inspired me alot On our way to Prof Howard hunter's office. SHe showed me what she

believe education is about. SHe's going to propose to have SMU students to go to her college

for exchange and internship programs in US.

She's also an avid reader and a woman of elegance and confidence.

Inspired by her. i went to the library to borrow books.

1) Life lessons for women

2) Brida by paulo coelho

3) Learning from the heart

4) Blink by malcolm Gladwell

Mon:escort, Markings, reading

tues: Health and wellness at fort canning, meeting, reading, marking

WEd: prep group activities for term2, spa marking till 730pm, meeting, reading, marking

thurs:Nie course,meet wih Dr Tan for further research collaboration, meet up, reading

fri: bac to school maybe, clear marking,reading

YUp i want to control my life and i have learnt to say NO!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-06T01:14:00.002+08:00

I will survive.

The past week was much better except the kids causing much problems.

My 2 heads have decided to off-load my teaching hours. One less class to teach next term.

It can be seen that i am not capable but i take it as a compassionate act.

I wouldnt be happy if i cannot manage. Then why force me to do so and affects my teaching?

meeting with HOD on tuesday.

i will let her know why i was so damn stressed.

Is everything that is planned beneficial to the kids?

2010-02-28T23:18:00.002+08:00

the past week was really really bad.. very very stressed and negative and frustrating....

frustrated with the system and myself, i have no time for activties and when i did,

i fell asleep in the meeting, not learning anything.

my teaching sucks, my attitude sucks.. everything came crumbling. have not felt so agitated bef.

i questioned myself: why am i here? do i deserve such attitude? why do we need to achieve

everything? Why can't we let go of some things? is it really going to benefit our students?

in the end, who work the hardest? the ppl up there were once us. Why have they changed?

Can they understand what we are going through? is everything for our students?

Reading really makes alot of difference. i cannot convince myself wih my passion and mission.

i decided to read the book :" lessons beyond classroom". I felt so much better.

SH, your primary focus is Teaching, teaching the concept right. not other things!!

had msn conver wih a boy..he encouraged me alot.=D

" CHer, i am stress. why do i have to cope wih so many things? activities, enrichment, tests.."

"all these are training ground for you. school is a safe environment that allows u to

make mistakes.learn how to manage ur time and cope. When u grow up, will have other issues."

"Then cher, are you facing problems?"

"yes of course, its part of life. we jus need to learn how to cope and manage them. just that

sometimes, i am frustrated that i cant focus on teaching a concept right."

"i can tell that you are a competent teacher. you are doing your best."

"thanks for your encourgement."

at least 1 out of 220 recognise the effort. thank you my dear.

i will pave the way no matter how small i am.

With mentor in mind, i will steadfastly forged ahead.

Like the ROAR of a Lion King.

For humnanity, for you and for me.

2010-02-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

i screwed up the lesson observation......

WHo cares abt the EPMS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"you are teaching facts, NOT concpets. you are lecturing. i can feel your frustration for the whole

1 hour. Your classroom managements has improved but what about class rapport?

The atmosphere is so tense."

i am guilty that my primary focus shld be thinking through my lesson bef i go to class

but i have other non-teaching stuff to do. So many things..e very single thing also need

to be accounted for. i am tired.

remedy: TO LOVE the kids, see the Buddha nature in them, change my tone, be patient,

smile in the toilet before i go for class, and be less strict abt school rules?

watever...

2010-02-10T16:54:00.002+08:00

The PEAK is coming!!!!! soon!!!

alot of planning.. putting aside quality lesson. omg!

i planned the japan trip itinerary, really waste my time to research shld have

approached JTB earlier.

but yes we are going, be it if there's a grant or not as we have engaged the vendor.

2010-01-23T17:51:00.003+08:00

So many things.. so little time. i also need time for myself leh..

got to churn out the Japan trip proposal by this weekend.-_-

OMG! i realised there's alot of admin work for this, on top of my duties.

Doing it once is enough. so many factors to consider: budget, objectives, itinerary, accomodation

parental consent, emergency and risks management, protocol, etc..

Ganbate x 10000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-16T23:06:00.003+08:00

Nippon 2010!!!!!!!

Planning Japan trip for the kids. Going in Mid-june if we get the grant. My Tr IC said plan first,

if cant get the grant, will ask management for approval for the trip.

"You plan and apply to the Japan Intl Organisation.We will bring the kids there."

Hmmm.. take it as an opportunity for growth!

Busier now cos more things to settle.

2010-01-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

Stay Tune to Okto Channel on 5th Feb 2010...

one of my kids will be featured as little volunteer to NParks. The producer will be featuring

his learning and interaction with students and teachers.

The filming is on Tuesday and my lesson is "chosen".

shall take it as an opportunity!

2010-01-02T12:05:00.002+08:00

like a lost sheep in 2009...Full of complains and sadness and nothing else.

now i know where i am heading to... GROWTH.

To be like the root of a tree. To GROW into a strong tree, provide love and shelter to the ppl

ard me.

To be victorious in seeing my own GROWTH.

Am tasked to take staff meeting minutes,shall see it as an opportunity to grow, NOT ARROW.

i want to change my life, for myself and for others.

2010-01-02T00:54:00.002+08:00

Started to tear when R said "If you think you cannot do it, no matter how much Daimoku

you chant, you will never be able to."...

looking back, not much to rmrb abt 2009. i realised that i Thought i am happy.

i Thought i can balance my life. I Thought i have let it go. But i have not. Alot of downs.

No wonder i teared so much.

Looking forward, i want to be happy, for myself and for others. I want to balance my life.

i want to let it go. I want to GROW. Grow at work by planning programs for my students.

Grow in gakkai for my new friend and believer to grow in faith. They must be happy.=)

2009-12-30T22:23:00.002+08:00

“再別康橋”。..

轻轻的我走了，正如我轻轻的来；我轻轻的招手，作别西天的云彩。

那河畔的金柳，是夕阳中的新娘；波光里的艳影，在我的心头荡漾。

软泥上的青荇，油油的在水底招摇；在康河的柔波里，我甘心做一条水草！

那榆荫下的一潭，不是清泉，是天上虹揉碎在浮藻间，沉淀着彩虹似的梦。

寻梦？撑一支长篙，向青草更青处漫溯，满载一船星辉，在星辉斑斓里放歌。

但我不能放歌，悄悄是别离的笙箫；夏虫也为我沉默，沉默是今晚的康桥。

悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来；我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。

2009-12-29T15:05:00.002+08:00

Back from malacca... Trip of leisure.

Waiting for the next Escapade!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back to work..........................

Assistant form, not my previous form class but this is a class of under-achievers.

How to help them? What can i do?

COnsistent consultation, be strict but compassionate. Encouragement.

Chem : Left sec 1 EOY exam + tos.

Math: Common test 1 + Mar hol assign + EOY exam + Tos.

Under-achievers programme: planning.

Suzhou trip? shanghai trip?? Cambodia trip?? waiting for "arrows".

Looking back 2009...

Tangible Achievement?? NONE.NOTHING.

Intangible achievement??

yes. building rapport with stud, dialogues with people, following up with a believer,

not giving up on anyone under my care.

Downturns??

Stress with Work-Life balance. Not sure what i am living for during that Peak period.

Going bonkers. No personal time. Working for others for 24/7. No time to reflect.

Cant see my own growth.

Motivation??

Comrades in faith. =)

Friends and family.

students' appreciation.

Faith.

Looking forward 2010...

haven got time to think.

2009-12-22T00:06:00.002+08:00

Why do you have to keep holding on to it???

HE is 31. SHE is 23. its been going on for quite a while that i am sick to hear it.

SHE said SHE will accept HIM if his BMI is 23. HE is very determined to reduce his weight.

HIS waist is less by 4inches now. I told HER HE is very stubborn. HE will be able to do it.

Then how? SHE will runaway. SHE went for palm reading and the Master said SHE will face

life challenges from age 27-33. SHE will only settle down at 33. HE said HE will wait for 10 yrs.

BY then, HE will be 41. HE wanted to change working env but choose to stay cos of HER.

WHy should SHE hinder HIS growth?

i guess i am very strict with my words but really hope HE wake up HIS idea.

"HOw many 10 yrs do you have? How sure are you that SHE will accept you by then?

PLS, you know HER the Best. Many things can happen in 10yrs.

Whatever it is, you made that choice."

Dun come and tell me that stud said its scandalous.

2009-12-20T23:09:00.002+08:00

realised that i dun have much days left for shopping...

FInished setting Chem test 2. left sec 1 EOY but put on hold first.

i shldnt have said no work for math.

Now i have LOTS to do for math.kind of stress. so last min.

e-learning package, ws,online quiz, common test 1, mid yr rev papers, mar hol assign, EOY.

oMG!=O

2009-12-16T13:35:00.002+08:00

work:

CHem sec 2 -- chapter ppt, notes,ws,grp project DONE! 2 quizzes DONE! 1 more to go!

1 common test to go!

Chem Sec 1 -- 1 EOY to go!

Math sec 2 -- No instructions given = no work! yeah!

Work in progress........DEADline 30th dec. dont think they are that efficient too.

2009-12-15T00:04:00.002+08:00

Heart-to-heart met up!!=D

Enlightened through the dialogue.. some key points:

1. If you graduate as an IIC, you will be defeated in the future.

2. Be inspired and inspire others.

3. Your happiness must not be reliant on others.

4. Marriage is not a bed of roses.

5. Cannot be an obstacle for kosen-rufu.

6. The effect of karma.

NO more COmplainS!!!!!!!!!

Lets STOP complaining!

2009-12-08T18:12:00.002+08:00

Many people ask how long will i be in the service... Seriously, i dunno.

commitment to myself: 5 yrs at least, wait till i get Connect PLan money by yr 4 of service.

2009-2014: IN sch.

2014----: Change of sch? MSc in education in Nie or Soka Uni? Tuition centre or Japan?

Career Vision: Teaching TRack. Be the Best tr.

mission: Infusing values in my teaching.

Actions to be taken in 2010:

- Be strict wih my kids. Mean business.

- Infuse values in every chapter.

- Collaborate with Dr Tan on Affective Science Education

- Publish research paper

- Present at a conference

2011-2014: - More research opportunities in Education.

Next step??

Start my engine on next year's syllabus.

2009-12-08T13:29:00.002+08:00

was looking through the blog posts from 2005 till present...

many many things had happened and i see how i hav changed my life for the better.=D

thanks to the people who had walked into my life, no matter what had happened along the way,

for you have taught me how to be Humane.Thank you.

memories of Europe trip and Japan trip, of Urops and FYP. They are now history.

Recalled why i want to be an educator.. to impart values to the kids for they lack of them.

going to meet Dr Tan later to discuss on Affective Education through Science.

没有悲伤

没有失败

今天也是愉快中前进

你的名字是"幸福博士"。

2009-12-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

"The exclusive pursuit of one's own interests cannot bring true happiness.

It is in striving for the sake of others that the great path to genuine happiness is opened."

Today, i understand what this quote mean.

Met up wih a new friend who wants to start Chanting to change her job karma at

Senja Soka centre. Had a great dialogue with her.=]

Then brought two inactive members to ASD meeting at Hortpark. They enjoyed the meeting!

ALthough the cab fare costs me $13, that sense of satisfaction of having touched 3 lives

today makes me happy.=D

2009-12-02T23:05:00.002+08:00

Back to reality.

was at T3 viewing gallery alone after my colleagues left... looking at the SQ plane leaving

brings me the urge to travel and to think about life.

What is life??

To live it, taste it, reach out without fear for new experience.

work??? not now........

2009-11-27T09:46:00.002+08:00

Life is about Moments...

My well-deserved Holidays!!!!!!!=D

dun wan to think about my piling-up work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

take care my friends, till we meet.

2009-11-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hives developed all over my bodyand face...........OMG!

allergic to McChicken. down with Urticaria.Viral infection in the chicken.

my body cant take seaweed,prawns,duck rice sauce,fish soup, KFC chicken and now McCHicken.

i mus get well!!!!!!! thurs have dept meeting and flying off on friday.

2009-11-20T00:16:00.002+08:00

If you need a Financial Planner, let me know, i give you her contact.

She is very Sincere and understanding. Most importantly, she is NOT pushy.=D

Thanks Ev for intro to me.

"I have 2 plans for you which i think you need. We should not overbuy some plans but

these 2 are what i think you may want to consider.

take ur time to consider the one that you can afford.

Let me know once you have made your decision. I will then give my recommendation."

She's really nice and sincere. I will recommend her to you.=)

2009-11-18T22:41:00.004+08:00

Preparing Sec 2Math syllabus...Upgrading my content. dun care,OTOT.=P

Chem work:

Sec 2 - DO up e-learning for 1 chap, ppt slides,notes, ws, 3 quizzes, Test 2 by 30th Dec 09.

Sec 1 - Do up EOY exam + TOS by june 2010.

Math work:

Sec 2 - ALL math lessons to be group work for Term 1. OMG!!!!!! Need to redo ALL the ws!

By 30th Dec 2009.

slack first, care later.=P

Fav. quote now:
"If you love something let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours. If it doesnt, it NEVER was."